I'm on a journey, not only of gaining my strength again after a really hard year, but also a journey to find myself in the midst of all that has happened.And honestly i'm not even sure which is the more difficult task.

As i search for my "passion" my self really in the midst of my heartache and life. I know i have found my true love and and am truly happy with Kenneth (I've always known this) I'm so incredibly lucky to have him, especially this last year he has helped me so much, he has built me back up and made the bad days not seem so terrible after all. He has been my rock.

As i'm working thru this phase of my life, i realize my entire life i have been a people pleaser. I always say yes to working late, or running errand for someone, helping others, doing something for free, donating my time etc.... Not that any of those things are bad but sometimes you also need to do for yourself...and that's one of my biggest faults.

This is a list i found for doing things for you.

most are true to me, and over the past 6 months or so I've really been trying to do things for me. I have taken many bubble baths, used face masks, i'm on season 6 of pretty little liars, i have taken up a journaling and coloring hobby, i have read quite a few books, explored cemeteries , made time for friends and family, cuddled by nieces and nephews and fur babies. And most of the other things on the list. It's important to do things for you, to figure out who you are. I'm such a different person that i was last year....

So basically the point of this post is to say, Hold on, do things for you, be happy and enjoy life. You're not promised tomorrow. 

-Clarissa